Sunday, September 20, 2015

New Chapter: SAHM

Every chapter has an end. But in life, every end has a new beginning.

My new chapter begins now... As a full time stay-at-home-mom with Remington (plus Jack and Sandy of course).

Three weeks ago I made the official decision to resign from my current position. Even though it wasn't an easy decision to make, Michael and I decided it was the best for our family. Yesterday (Saturday) was my last day. It was hard decision to make and was definitely bittersweet!
Over the 10 month period of being pregnant, we tossed the idea of becoming a SAHM several times. But since I was the insurance provider, we knew I would have to go back to work. At least until the end of the year. As time passed, there were many changes at my office and it became very hectic at times. When I was on maternity leave for 12 weeks, my desire to go back to the chaos was minimal. A I've mentioned, work has been one of the main contributing factors of my stress lately. (I don't want to put too much info on here about the office I was recently transferred to, but I'll just say it was poorly ran, a negative atmosphere most days, and I no longer "enjoyed" my job). Michael and I were lucky enough to get an opportunity to switch insurance around just in case I decided to resign. However, there was a few reasons why I chose to go back and give it a shot. Mostly to pay back the insurance cost I had incurred while I was on maternity leave.. but also because I'm stubborn and I thought I had something to prove that I could be a successful working mom. I had hopes that the office environment would improve and my employer told me things would change which would allow it to get better. Also, there was a possibility that I may eventually be promoted to a different position and make more money. I've always envisioned myself as a career woman. I admired the woman who were able to be stay at home mom's however I never saw myself as one. Until now. Now I know how hard it is to be a full time working Mom (especially with a husband that travels for work). Now I know how it feels to pick her up from her babysitter's an hour before bath/bedtime and not be able to spend more time with her. Now I know what it's like to miss out on some of her first milestones. Now I know how special it is to have the opportunity to give 100% time/effort to my baby, rather than splitting that time/effort between a job and my daughter. Now I know how truly important my job as a mother is.

To the working Mom's out there... You are amazing. It is not easy to work full time AND go home and work full time taking care of your children. For that, I applaud and admire the Mamma's who work hard around the clock!

Over the last 10 years of working at Talmer, I have met some wonderful people. Some of which have become my closest friends. I am forever grateful for the knowledge, experience, and friendships I have built. As bittersweet as it is to close the door to such a big chapter in my life, I am very thankful for the opportunity to start a new chapter as a SAHM. Of course, none of this would be possible without the support and hard work from my hubby! ♥

Here's to a new chapter of spending my days with this chubby girl! ♥♥♥

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Remington Rose ♥ 5 Months

First of all I would like to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your sweet comments regarding my last post. It's relieving to know I'm not alone in this journey of motherhood! ♥
In happier news, Remington Rose turned 5 months last week! I don't know about you, but I feel like the days/weeks/months are flying by at lightning speed! How is it September already??! I actually had to write a reminder in my planner the day that Remington turns a month older because I tend to get lost in the days. #mommybrain 

Weight/Length: As of 2 weeks ago, she weighed just under 17lbs and is 26 inches long.
Clothes: She is still fitting into most 6 month clothes but jammies are much more comfortable if they are 9 months! Gotta stretch those long legs!
Sleep Habits: Unfortunately, this hasn't improved much. Mamma needs some sleep baby girl!!! It seems like she's more consistent with waking up every 3 hours rather than 2 hours (knock on wood). She definitely has to have a blankie to snuggle with and chew on when she's falling asleep. No paci, just a blankie. Oh and her new "thing" is talking in her sleep. So even though she's not waking up to eat, I'm still waking up to check on her to see if she's just talking or if she's really awake. Which puts me back to waking up every hour or two. Argh! I'm starting to learn to just lay in bed and wait a few minutes before I go check on her or just wait until she actually cries.
Eating Habits: Baby girl loves to eat! She is drinking 6oz per feeding on average. I am almost dried up so she's living off freezer stash and formula. We've settled on the Honest organic formula. Remington has now started oatmeal for breakfast, fruit with her afternoon bottle, and oatmeal with her pre bedtime bottle. This week I will rotate in some veggies for dinner instead of the oatmeal. So far all of her baby food (besides the oatmeal) is handmade by yours truly and was grown in our own yard! Except the pears, those were from the tree at Grandpa's farm.  
Diapers: Size 3 Honest diapers - the cutest diapers you've ever seen!
Appearance: I still vote that she's a mini Michael. Her chubbiness reminds me of my baby pictures though. And her blue eyes must be from me because Michael has dark eyes. Her hair is falling out a lot more. Which makes me wonder what color it's going to grow back in as?! She definitely has a big smile that just melts my heart! (like the bottom right picture above is her laughing at her silly Daddy)
I'll also note with her appearance... At her 4 month appointment, I had asked her Dr. (for the 2nd time since she was born) about her neck being cocked to the right side all the time. He checked her over and diagnosed her with torticolis. We started physical therapy for it the same day. She screamed the entire time. At first I was kind of bumming about it because I was regretting not pursuing the situation sooner. Especially after he told me if it didn't get better it would affect the shape of her head and she would have to wear a helmet. I just felt bad. Although I felt like the Dr should feel worse because he's not even the one that noticed it and he disregarded my comment about it the last time I brought it up when she was younger. Long story short, Remington has been attending PT and we have been doing the exercises with her at home as well. She still doesn't like PT and she does try to fight me at home but I try to make a game of it and get her giggling. So far, she has been greatly improving. As you can see in the above photo's she is actually able to hold her head up and off her shoulder! Wooo!  
Nicknames: Sassy pants, Stinker pie, Rem, Remi, Tiny, Tiny Toots, Pumpkin, Baby
Firsts: She put her footsies in the lake for the first time. She wasn't a fan. We went to the mall for the first time. She's eaten her first oatmeal, peaches, pears, and peas. Nana and Papa Furtah babysat her for the first time while Michael and I went to a concert - which was definitely the longest I have been away from her! She met her Great Uncle Norman for the first time!
Learning: Her voice! Oh my does she love to talk. Remington has learned to get up on all fours (hands and knees) and rocks back and forth - sometimes launching herself forward. She's learned to reach for things. She rolls all over the place and definitely can't be left alone for long. She's definitely learned Mommy and Daddy's voices and will whip her head around looking for us. She's learning how to sit up but still teeter's back and forth a bit.
Likes: Her bouncer, riding in the stroller, chewing on anything and everything, bath time, talking, being talked to, her hands, watching the dogs or the other kids her size, looking at anything with lights/sound, making faces, looking in the mirror, being rocked to sleep, sucking on her hand/blanket when trying to fall asleep, watching cartoons (especially Micky Mouse), being outside.
Dislikes: Not being able to reach something, sitting in one spot for too long, having to wait to eat, getting boogers out of her nose, the pacifier,
Mommy's Feelings: I think this post about how I've been feeling about sums it up for now... Despite the challenges, I will say that I am over the moon in love with our little girl. She is by far the greatest blessing in my life. I love watching her grow, kissing her cheeks, and pinching those chubby thighs. Although some days are challenging, she brings a whole new meaning to living life and happiness. ♥ 


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